![]() Psalm seemed to be an unstoppable force of productivity. She was not a scholar she was a lightning rod for Shakti, the dynamic primordial creative embodied energy. She was willing to reveal herself so fully to the world as a sexual-spiritual being. She raised awareness about our culture of sex-shaming. She founded a non-profit called Courage to Rise, dedicated to women’s empowerment with programs in India and America. ![]() She taught hatha yoga to sex workers in the slums of India. She held a potent space for presence, connection, warmth, beauty, and ritual. She brought in the drums and the Kali chants, she lifted the spirits and provoked the bravery of many beings. She shared sweet practices that were accessible to rushing Americans. I hosted her at my yoga studio and attended one of her early retreats. Still, as green as she was, she was on a mission to heal the sexual trauma of the world, like a juggernaut. She was just taking root in her own practices and integrating her profound transformational experiences. She was fresh from India, activated, and in love with the path of yoga and tantra. What she did not know is that one of the potential side effects of Xanax withdrawal is depression as well as suicidal ideation.I first encountered Psalm as she was just emerging into the seat of the teacher. “Psalm realised she wanted that medication out of her system and decided to quit Xanax, Caffeine and alcohol all at once. Tragically in the midst of this depression she was trying to quit the prescription medication Xanax which she had been using for some time to treat insomnia. “The latest depression that came over Psalm was a heavy one that had been weighing on her since the winter. “She was incredibly courageous in the face of a chemical imbalance that took her to sometimes dizzying heights and debilitating lows. “Psalm Isadora struggled most of her life with bipolar disorder,” Caulfield wrote. To put any conspiracies to rest, Isadora’s longtime friend Monique Caulfield recently released a statement urging people to accept her death and rather than glorify, or even imitate it. Some express their disbelief that she could ever have killed herself while others flag the possibility she was murdered “for her controversial views”. Meanwhile her disciples continue to post tributes on her Facebook page. She used it to heal her own “sexual wound” and heal others whose sexuality had been crippled by the trauma of abuse. ![]() He educated Isadora about Tantra in the Śrī Vidyā tradition, an ancient lineage devoted to worship of the feminine. Sri Amritananda was a former nuclear physicist turned tantra teacher who had built an enormous temple adorned with statues of penises and vaginas in a remote location in the country’s east. In 2007 Isadora travelled to India where a Tantric master gave her initiation in Shakti Tantra Yoga – the ancient teachings on feminine and sexual energy that were kept secret even in India for centuries because of religious taboos. Word of her charisma spread and in a relatively short space of time she had gone from running free classes in Hollywood to building a multi-million business including online courses, live events, and TV shows. She turned her life around with yoga, becoming a teacher in Hollywood. White light was everywhere, like I connected something eternal with ecstasy. “I was hypersexual sex was where I could go and escape myself. Some people who have had sexual abuse (become) hyposexual - they shut down their sexuality. I’m not mad at it except it wasn’t empowered (sex). I had sex with men, I had sex with women, I had sex with Hollywood. Or doing drugs because then I would feel free. “It would feel like the red-hots, like I couldn’t crawl out of my own skin and the only escape would be maybe drinking because then I was numb and then I felt free. I was still afraid of being judged, I was afraid if I told people, no one would love me because I was too broken and wounded. “I used anything I could to escape the pain but I still kept my secret, I still protected my abuser. “I spent my 20s in a hot mess of sex and drugs,” Isadora told a wellness seminar in the US last year, just months before her suicide. Her quest to heal her “sexual wound” led her on a perilous drug and sex-fuelled journey from the clubs and bars of Hollywood to the ashrams of southern India. Isadora was escaping not only the group’s oppressive lifestyle but also the father who had molested her from the age of five.
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